I was sitting in the Drs. Office the other day thinking of many things like why is my anxiety through the roof (smoking). And why can’t I afford my long acting anxiety meds ($125 a month) but yet I can afford to feed my smoking habit (around $173 a month) I know that if I can quit smoking my anxiety will be cut drastically. I know this because not too long ago I had quit for 23 days and my anxiety was about 75% better that it had been. I was even starting to wean myself off of my long acting anxiety meds (with my drs. Supervision of course) and did not have to take my short acting (rescue) anxiety meds nearly as much as I had been. As a matter of fact I went from 1 a day to 10 a month. I could kick my own butt for starting back but as it is I did so that also leaves me at the Drs. Office pondering why I can’t seem to quit. I see so many of my family and friends and online peeps quit and stay that way. Why can’t I. I have quit for a couple of months once or twice but can’t seem to stay that way for very long. I know that smoking is killing me I feel it in my breathing already. I know that by week 2 or 3 I feel great and have a dramatic drop in anxiety so why can’t I do it. I have “quit” so many times that when I tell my family I am going to quit they just roll their eyes and say whatever. When you do it and stay that way let us know. When exactly in a quit should I tell them now in a month in 2 months I don’t know I have quit that long before and went right back to smoking. It does kind of hurt but I can’t say as I blame them much. I quit at a minimum of 10 times a month usually for less than 24 hours. I know that it causes many arguments and has reduced my 12 year old daughter to tears because she does not want to see her momma smoking and die as she tells me every time I go back to smoking. She used to be my biggest cheerleader but I have disappointed her so much that even she is like I will believe it when I see it. I really need a lot of help with this quit I will mostly need the online support as I don’t intend to tell my family till later on in the quit maybe 3 months if they have not noticed by then and help will be greatly appreciated. I am hoping to have my independence from cigs before Independence Day. If you made it through this thank you.