Today was a very good day. I was able to work out this morning, take care of a few jobs around the house, and have a pretty good afternoon with the kids. They were fighting a lot today, and causing some other trouble, but I stayed calm through the whole thing. Even laughed in my head a little about their antics. Kids WILL be kids, after all. I don't appear to be having very many cravings for the things, but I think about them an awful lot. When will I stop thinking so much about the damn things? I think about them when I am in the garden. I think about them after I work out. I think about, "it's nice i don't have to worry about time for smoking before i go pick up the kids". It is very tiresome. I don't think about pulling over at a gas station to pick up smokes. I don't think about searching the house for my husband's stash of cigarettes. They just pop into my mind at random times. Things are good, though. I've made it through 2 weeks smoke free. It has been 2 years since I could say that. I know I have to be very careful with this quit, though. The last time I had any "long" term success, I was off for about 2 1/2 months or so, and then picked it back up just before the three month mark. I would sneak one out of my husband's pocket after work and just have the one and go to bed. I did that for awhile, and then that wasn't enough. I ruined it. I don't want to go back through all this beginning stuff again. While it isn't as bad as I imagined, it is bad enough! I do like posting here daily. I will need this in the future to look back on when I feel tempted to have one because I think I have it kicked. Ha. I am a drug addict, and having one smoke is the same thing as an alcoholic having one drink. It doesn't work. Not One Puff EVER!!!!!