Hi everyone it is me again. Quitting again and for good this time. I am not sure if I am going to try for the gift card this time or not since that was part of the excuse that I gave myself when I give in last time was that I missed a day so I might as well smoke and start over again so that I can get my gift card. Stupid right but that is what the addiction was telling me. I know it was just an excuse and not a very good one at that but I did go back to smoking none the less. I tried a few methods in between the last time I was on here and now but I only did them half heartedly but I am giving this quit that I have now my all. I am currently 1 hour into day 2 and on the patch as that seemed to help me most out of all that I tried. I did try an app on my phone that helped you cut down on your cigs by giving you a notification when you could smoke but that only lasted for a day or 2 then I still smoked whenever I wanted to plus when the timer when off I think I finally hit bottom when I went from smoking a pack and a half of cigs a day to over 2 packs a day while trying to cut down. And I felt so bad when I was smoking that much, constant headache, trouble breathing, heart racing, tiredness, acid reflux getting out of hand just to name a few things so finally on april fools day around 11:30 as I was just finishing up the first pack of the day and felt like I was in a cronic state of my panic disorder I just said enough is enough I am not going to be able to cut down either I have to just bite the bullet and quit or I am going to die. And the rest is history. I still have patches from my previous attempts at quitting so I put one on and did not go buy any more cigs. I even worked last night and the bar smoke did not even bother me of course my lungs and head still hurt and I am not sure if I could even really smell it last night we will just have to see what tonight brings.