I'm sitting at work struggling to all ends of the Earth. I stopped and bought an Orange Julius today to try and help rid my body of the toxins. Plus, I'm sooo used to grabbing a Dr. Pepper on my way in so I wanted something to different to change up the routine. I can't help but think "I want a cigarette." Even though I don't. I spent the last 3 weeks of my smoking life researching how to stop smoking, as I was smoking. If that doesn't scream how loudly I DON'T WANT to smoke, I don't know what does. The fear was crazy bad. I would find any excuse under the sun to smoke. And now, I'm sitting here looking for one again. "Oh, I'll quit tomorrow." Well, what is so wrong with today? Why tomorrow? It's going to be the same thing tomorrow anyway. Ughhh. How do I make it stop?!