Last reset! I learned that I could not do it cold turkey. I decided to try the patches for a while. I also bought me some snacks that seem to help some such as candy canes and peppermint gum cravings were unbearable to me. And I kept snapping really bad and my daughter and my husband. However with that being said I am going into this quit I will have not cigs and no way to get them as we are expected to get 2-3 feet of snow over the next 3 days. Everything will close even stores so I will not be able to just go out and get cigs (even if I could get my own car out.) I have already told my boss that I would do my best to get into work but I was not making any promises. My car sits lower to the ground so I do not have much clearance as far as snow goes. I have been noticing my health declining this past year and I know I really really really need to do this. My breathing is getting really bad and I hope that it is not too late. I have a drs. Appointment on Monday and will discuss that with him and hopefully get some answers. I am also hoping that some of the tightness and difficulty breathing will let up by then. I also know that this is going to wreak havic on my Panic disorder. I was a firm believer that smoking helped with my anxiety but now I feel that it is causing a great deal of it as I have most of my panic attacks after I smoke. My anxiety was in high gear when I tried to quit this past time too and it was only a day. Had panic attack after panic attack and those wear me out so I slept most of the day. Hopefully with the patches I wont have the increased anxiety that I had yesterday but only time will tell. I am aiming to run a 5k with my daughter in May. We have the color run that comes around every year and me and my daughter usually go but we walk it. Last year she said that she wanted to run it next year which would be this year so I guess that I need to start getting into shape and training for that. Well enough rambeling for one day lol.