Afternoon all - hope you're doing well!

Just an update after my "evenings are hard post" - Tim's comment about how he finds mornings, afternoons and evenings hard strikes a chord with me! :) 

I'm still not smoking (why would I want to?), and things are getting a little bit better...

Day 1 was definitely the worst, but the sense of achievement having completed a day makes you realise that if you can do one day, why not two, ten, 100 etc.

Now I'd love to say it's getting easier - but I'm not sure that it is getting "easier" as quickly as I hoped!

I know I'm not thinking about it as much as I did on day 1 (part of the reason for not visiting here until now - trying not to think about it!), but it's always nagging in the back of my head one way or another.

On the first day I locked myself in the house and struggled through, on the second day I went to work and it really shocked me how much that triggered me to the point I came home and bolted the doors shut!!!

Obviously I switched on the TV later in the evening and saw the stuff happening in Paris.  That seems to have put things in to perspective a lot - there are a whole bunch of people that are no longer with us through no fault of their own.  My personal demons are inconsequential compared to what those people went through, and what their relative must now go through.  It was a sobering thought (sorry for bringing people down).

On a positive note - it really is getting better (it just doesn't feel like it is), I've got soooo much more energy than I did (cleared out the garage this morning - something I've been putting off for ages!).  Just had a pizza and it tasted totally different to how I remembered it - so much more tasty!

Sure, I've got a bit of a cough - but I think that's a good thing - I'm ridding myself of the poison.  Feel so much more alert now!

It's been an interesting journey to get here (and I know I'm not out of the woods), but in the grand scheme of things it's a piece of cake - that's what I keep telling myself!

Be strong, stay vigilant and keep going - if I can do this, anyone can! :)